培民同志远去,我的情感体验是伤痛,永久的伤痛,如同失去亲人;理智体验却是清澄,表里的清澄,如对玉壶之冰。我生长在一个封闭的小山村,从小怕官,做梦都没有想到自己也当了“官”。但怕官的意识,始终摆不脱,扔不掉。可是,我在培民同志手下做事,从来没有怕过他,没有任何距离感,也 Peking Comrades go away, my emotional experience is painful, permanent pain, as lost loved ones; rational experience is clear, the clear inside and outside, such as the jade ice. I grew up in a small enclosed village, afraid of officials, never dreamed I had also become an “official.” But fear of official awareness, always put it off, can not throw away. However, I work in the hands of Pei-min comrades, have never been afraid of him, there is no sense of distance, also