阿南放下电话,望着窗外,突然她眼前闪过一道白光,仿若看到了几年后的母亲。就像医生在电话里向她描述的,几年后的母亲已到了老年痴呆的第三个阶段,没有自主意识,像个动物一样在屋里爬来爬去。但她不知为什么,觉得母亲就算变得动物一样,却像是到了另一个境界,让人莫名产生一种向往。她看到母亲身上闪着微微的白光,周围是斑驳而肮脏的污垢。母亲被关在一个房子里,墙上地上甚至天花板上都是一些看不清 Anan put down the phone and looked out the window, suddenly a flash of light flashed in front of her, as if I saw a few years after the mother. As the doctor described to her on the phone, a few years later her mother had reached the third stage of Alzheimer’s disease without any sense of autonomy, crawling around the house like an animal. But she did not know why, I think that even if the mother becomes animal, but like to another state, people inexplicable to produce a yearning. She saw a slight white light shining on her mother, surrounded by mottled and dirty dirt. The mother was kept in a house, the walls and the ceiling were some invisible