大病了一场,身心似经历一场浩劫一般。先前总以为自己虽算不得年轻,但也不到为病痛所累的年龄。而当自己睁眼去看这未免有点残酷的现实时,方知所有的那些焦虑与不甘都是没有意义的,它考验的是人的耐心。或许人在病中总是想一些问题,力图探究一些因果究竟,后来发现这本身也是徒劳的。至今记得哪位名人讲过的一句话,人其实是很脆弱的,只不过脆弱点不同罢了。在某种特定的情形下,就更加让人感到生命的无常与无奈。想起自己以前的种种计划和目标,这时可能早已经遁影无踪了。疾病的出现最直接的后果便是打乱正常的生活进程。一瞬之间,人生的祈求或许就一下子回归到生命的底线。 A serious illness, physical and mental experience like a catastrophe in general. Although I thought I could not get too young, I did not get to the age of suffering. When we open our eyes to see this is a bit brutal reality, it is meaningless to know all those anxieties and unwillingness, and it tests human patience. Perhaps people always think of some problems in the disease, trying to explore some of the cause and effect, and later found that in itself is futile. As far as I remember which famous person said a word, people are actually very fragile, but the fragile point is different. Under certain circumstances, people feel more impermanence and helplessness. Think of their previous plans and goals, this time may have disappeared. The most immediate consequence of the emergence of a disease is upsetting the normal course of life. In a flash, the prayer of life may suddenly return to the bottom line of life.