一“时间实际上是世界上一切事物的后记,而不断与语言那自我生成本质打交道的诗人则是第一个知道这点的人。”这是布罗茨基在谈论茨维塔耶娃时说过的,出自著名的《一首诗的注脚》。写作就是用文字制造幻觉,而写作动力则来自更大的幻觉,在虚无与意义之间疲于奔命,写作才能找到安身之处。这句话对我来说是一种微弱的安慰和提醒:这些年,我在哪里虚度了光阴。作为一个很少掩饰自己虚荣心的人,我不只一次地幻想过自己出版第一本书的情景,也曾不止一次地默想一些在序言里应该出现的漂亮句子。类似的虚荣和幻想大约在十几年前就冒了头。那时,我刚刚对“写作”产生隐约的好感,便以一种野心勃勃的矫 A “time is actually an afterthought in everything in the world, and a poet who is continually dealing with the very nature of the language itself is the first one who knows it.” “This is how Brodsky is talking about Civetta Baby said, from the famous ”footnote to a poem.“ Writing is the use of words to create illusion, and writing power comes from a greater illusion, exhausted between nothingness and meaning, writing to find shelter. This sentence is a faint consolation and reminder to me: Where have I spent my time in these years? As a man who seldom masks his vanity, I have not only fantasized his own publication of the first book more than once, but also meditated on many occasions the beautiful sentences that should appear in the preface. A similar vanity and fantasy risked their head about a dozen years ago. At that time, I just had a vague favor with ”Writing ", and I used an ambitious