我只有三十岁,可当我回头观望时,觉得自己仿佛走在一片巨大的墓地,除了坟墓和十字架,我一无所见。迟早会在某处树立起一座新的坟墓,给它装饰上什么样的纪念碑,普通的十字架抑或大理石的庞然大物,全都无所谓——这便是我所留下的一切。归根结底,这无关紧要:不朽是种无聊的玩意,生命也鲜有乐趣。糟糕的是,死亡非常可怖,你也打不定主意是否要主动让自己去见鬼;你还要活很久,要在这个被称为生的墓地上久久地 I was only thirty, but when I looked back I felt as if I was walking in a huge graveyard, except the graves and the cross, and I saw nothing. Sooner or later, a new grave will be erected somewhere, and it does not matter what kind of monument it is decorated with, a common cross or a marble monster - that’s all I left behind. Ultimately, it does not matter: immortality is a boring gadget and life has few fun. Worse, death is horrible, and you’re not sure if you want to take the initiative to make yourself a hell; you have to live long hours, long on this graveyard