读到一篇署名袁征的长文《沈从文大师素描》,作者梳理了很多有关沈先生的资料,把他一九四九年后的心路历程一一描绘出来——对于我们这类没有耐性的读者,那真是功德无量的事。在沈从文最痛苦的一段日子中,因为不适应新社会的文化,担心他以往的左翼论敌找他算帐,他开始有精神病的症状,试过自杀未遂。在精神最无助的时候,他以听古典音乐来纾缓压抑的内心,他说:“从收音机听过《卡门》前奏曲、《蝴蝶夫人》曲、《茶花女》曲,一些音的涟漪与波谷,把我生命带到许多似熟习又陌生的过程中,我总想喊一声,却没有作声,想哭哭,没有眼泪,想说一句话,不知向谁去说。” Reading a long article entitled “Master Shen Congwen Sketch” signed by Yuan Zheng, the author combed a lot of information about Shen and portrayed his own mentality after 1949 - impatient for us Readers, that is really meritless thing. In the most painful period of Shen Congwen, he began to suffer from mental illness and attempted suicide attempts because he did not adapt to the culture of a new society and was worried that his former leftist enemy would find him accountable. When the most helpless spirit, he listened to classical music to relieve the depressed heart, he said: “From the radio had heard” Carmen “prelude,” Madame Butterfly “,” Camellia "song, some of the sound Ripples and troughs, brought my life to many familiar and strange process, I always want to shout, but did not make any noise, want to cry, no tears, want to say a word, I do not know who to say.