矛盾。我的确是个过于矛盾的人。最可悲的是,我对此无能为力。我习惯在十二月做一些总结性的事情,回过头看看这一年,顺带翘首盼望一下千万里之外的未来,希望能找到一些让自己欢欣的痕迹。但我毕竟是个有些悲观的人,每一次的回顾都只能让我黯然神伤。可能是初中的时候留下的习性,改不了,我对它无可奈何。十二月 contradiction. I am indeed an overly contradictory person. The saddest thing is that I can do nothing about it. I’m used to doing some summative things in December. Looking back at this year, I look forward to looking forward to the future beyond a million miles away. I hope to find some traces of joy. However, after all, I was a bit pessimistic. Every review can only make me sad. It may be the habit left by junior high school. I can’t change it. I can’t help it. December