在给李娟发信息之前,我打了她十三次电话。她无一例外地挂断电话。她对我心存芥蒂,一直以来我都清楚,我们之间隔着一段埋藏五年的纠葛。五年来,我们不曾联系,不曾见面,努力走出伤心往事,寻找属于各自的路径。在我的人生经验里,这种来自心底的意愿单纯而美好,如同朝阳带着湿气扑面而来。但是,王强的死,使我对以往的诸多经验产生怀疑,心间某块坚固的东西瞬间坍塌。我相信了,在生活表层之下,隐匿着一股湍急的暗流。李娟的形象就在那时浮现。我想再次忘掉她,怎么也做 Before sending a message to Li Juan, I called her thirteen times. She hung up without exception. She has been sorry for me, I have always been clear, between us buried a five-year entanglement. In the past five years, we have not been in contact with, never met, we have worked hard to get out of our sad memories and find their own paths. In my experience of life, this will from the bottom of my heart pure and beautiful, just as the morning sun with the moisture blowing. However, Wang Qiang's death cast doubt on many of the past experiences, and one of the firm things collapsed instantaneously. I believe, hidden under the surface of life, an impassive undercurrent. Juan's image then surfaced. I want to forget her again, how to do it