母亲最害怕自己不被需要,当孩子们把琐碎的事情都料理得井井有条时,她们会有种孩子长大了的欣慰感,也会有种失去作用的失落感。因为我们在长大,她们在变老。1我两个月大的时候,外公突发心肌梗死,病倒了。大舅和二舅在部队上,于是照顾外公的重担子就落在了我妈——聂女士的肩上,她不得已地把我丢给了爷爷奶奶。三个月后外公康复出院,聂女士背上大包小包拉着我爸走南闯北去了。所以从小,我跟聂女士就不亲。所以从小,我就对聂女士有偏见,这种偏见同我的年龄与日俱增。 Mothers are most afraid they are not needed, and when children are organized in trivial matters, they have the comforting feeling of growing up and the loss of sense of loss. Because we are growing up, they are getting older. When I was two months old, my grandfather burst into a myocardial infarction and fell ill. Uncle and second uncle in the army, so take care of my grandfather’s heavy burden falls on my mother - Ms. Nie’s shoulder, she had the last resort to my grandparents. Three months after my grandfather was discharged from hospital, Ms. Nie took her dad and took me to the north for a long time. So I grew up, I do not kiss Nie. So from an early age, I was prejudiced against Ms. Nie, the same bias with my age.