1我仍在这里[1]我曾是个弱不禁风的孩子,并且让我十分尴尬的是,由于一种至今仍不知名———至少对我是这样———的疾病,我在十几岁的时候就被免除了体育活动。在那时我形成了对世界的厌倦,一种持久的、无法克服的、随时间流逝愈发恶化的散漫。当我在信件和交谈中抱怨生活时,疲 1 I’m still here [1] I used to be a fragile child, and it made me so embarrassed that with a disease that I still do not know - at least to me, that I was in my teens When was removed from the sport. At that time I became tired of the world, a long-lasting, insurmountable and overcoming aggravation over time. When I complain about life in letters and conversations, I’m tired