很难把握生命。一位医生说,毛病不断的人,不见得短命。就像一只瓷瓶,纵然已显裂纹,但仔细爱护,亦可避免破碎。而一只好碗,一不当心也会粉身碎骨。他和她相伴走了三十年,一向没大病的她倒要走在长病的他之前了。昨天去参加了一个“文革”中与她同囚“牛棚”的一位老先生的追悼会,回来路上竟猝然倒地。他怎么都不接受这个突降的不幸。他跪在她面前,紧握那只失血的手,一遍又一遍地念叨:说好的,将来你是先要送我的,你怎么可以先走了呢!怎么可以不管我了呢!“她仿佛听到了他的声音,失神的目光亮了一亮,闭着的嘴张开了,发出了耳语般的声音,好像是说,对不起啊,对不起啊……男子的哭声,使人心碎,他们的女儿拉开了跪地不起的父亲。丧事之后,他和女儿整理了她的遗物。她的多种爱好让她收藏了好些东西;有书有画,还有一大叠集邮本。每一样东西,都让他重温妻的一切:恬静的 Difficult to grasp life. A doctor said people who have a constant problem are not necessarily short-lived. Like a porcelain bottle, even though it has been cracked, but carefully protected, but also to avoid broken. And a good bowl, an unhappy will be frail. He had been with her for thirty years, and she had never been seriously ill before she walked long before him. Yesterday went to attend a ”Cultural Revolution “ with her in prison ”bullpen “ an old man’s memorial service, come back suddenly fell to the ground. How he did not accept the sudden decline of misfortune. He knelt in front of her, holding on to the blood-losing hand, talking over and over again: ”Okay, you’re the first to send me in the future. How can you go first? How can you leave me alone?“ ” She seemed to hear his voice, her eyes on her face lost, her closed mouth wide open with a whispering voice, as if to say, I’m sorry, I’m sorry ah ... the cry of a man made the heart crush , Their daughters opened the kneeling father, and after the funeral he and her daughter sorted out her relics, her multiple hobbies kept her a good collection of books, books and pictures, and a large collection of stamps. Everything, let him review everything his wife: quiet