当我写下这一题目时,不免自嘲,在阶级斗争为纲的年代,你能为自己做主吗?不,不能!既然不能又何以有这样的命题?不能,并非没有这一追求,不过这一追求沉睡了大半辈子,直到中年才有所醒悟。心态的发展往往会物极必反,就像《牛虻》中的亚瑟一样,把蒙泰里尼当作天神一样崇拜,匍匐在天主的脚下,可一旦发现这最高的信仰竟然是虚构的幻影,那亚瑟的心情就是我的心 When I write down this topic, I can not help but joking that you can make the case for yourself in the age of class struggle? No, no! Since there is no such proposition? No, no pursuit without this. A pursuit of sleeping most of my life, until middle-aged only to wake up. The development of mentality tends to be extremely antithetical. Like Arthur in the “Gadfly”, Montenini is worshiped as a god, prostrate at the feet of God, and once this highest faith is found to be a fictional illusion, Joseph’s mood is my heart