不久前偶然看到一份特殊的忏悔录——一个曾身居高位,因擅权受贿被判死刑的人临刑前数月的日记。其中幻想出狱之后如何过平民生活的文字相当生动——甚至可以说相当感人。他的结论是,因为他以前不知道平常生活中唾手可得的幸福竟然如此美好,如此迷人,所以才缘木求鱼地寻找种种伪幸福,并且为之支付了最昂贵的代价。 Not long ago I saw a special confession record - a diary of a few months prior to the execution of a man who had been in the highest position and was sentenced to death on bribery. The fantasy of how to live with civilian life after the release of the text is quite vivid - and can even be quite touching. His conclusion is that because he did not know the well-being of life in ordinary life even so beautiful, so charming, so as to find all kinds of fake happiness, and to pay the most expensive price.