我是个私生女。母亲爱上了一个小自己十岁的男人。违背所有人意愿,我来到这个世界。这是当地一个人人皆知的秘密,只有我被蒙在鼓里。母亲顾及大家庭里其他人的感受,不敢爱我;法院规定在成年之前,生父不能与我相见;而养父,对我则有着一种理还乱的复杂情感,始终有距离。没人重视,没人关心,在冷漠的环境中,我一天天长大。 I am an illegitimate girl Mother fell in love with a man ten years old. Against the will of all, I came to this world. This is a well-known local secret, only I was kept in the dark. The mother, taking into account the feelings of other people in the extended family, did not dare love me; the court stipulated that before becoming an adult, the biological father could not meet with me; and the adoptive father had a complicated emotion to me, always with a distance. No one value, no one cares, in a cold environment, I grew up day by day.