缓慢地写了20多年文字,这是第一次认真地谈自己的创作感受和观点。以前也有同道朋友想了解我的写作历程和创作理念,但总是被我婉拒。这其中有两个原因,一是我虽然写了很多年,但并没有成什么气候,无非是从“文学青年”到“文学中年”而已;二是我的写作一直是一种天赋的本能,因此我极少有意地去思考写作的方向与意义,对于我来说,记录真实的内心和真实的生活,这是一种爱好,也是个人生存的姿态。仅此无他。很多年前,我写过一个叫《无语》的小文, 其中有这样一段文字可以证明我的写作是本能的和平淡的: “我常常想:我是从什么时候开始执著于与文字亲近而远离有声地表达的呢? 平生的第一个记忆,似乎是乘着一条破旧的 Slowly written more than 20 years of writing, this is the first time to seriously talk about their own creative feelings and views. There were former colleagues who wanted to know my writing history and creative ideas, but I always declined. There are two reasons for this. One is that although I wrote for many years, I did not get into any climate, just from “literary youth” to “middle age of literature.” Second, my writing has always been a natural instinct Therefore, I seldom deliberately thought about the direction and significance of writing. For me, recording the true inner world and real life is a hobby as well as a gesture of personal existence. Only this without him. Many years ago, I wrote a small essay called “silent”, in which I can prove that my writing is instinctive and plain: "I often think: When did I start to be clinging to words and Far from voicing? The first memory of life seems to be riding a worn-out