我只有初中一年级的文化程度,业务水平很低,已经做了七八年的小学教师,经常感到不能胜任这个工作。解放后,党和政府要求逐步提高小学教育质量,我更感到不够,迫切希望学习。可是,一提到学习,我又这样想:自己是四个孩子的母亲,岁数已近中年,恐怕难以实现这个愿望。在这种矛盾思想中,对工作就愈加缺乏信心,有时候竟还会想到自己总有一天会被淘汰的。可是,事实给了我最好的答复。在我们这个新社会里,党和政府经常在关怀着我们,鼓励和帮助我们进步。一九五三年秋天,苏州市文教局和教育工会为了提高小学教师的文化水平,举办了小学教师业余进修学校,我请求参加语文组学习的要求批准了。当时在我的思想上 I have only the first year of junior high school education level, very low level of business, has done seven or eight primary school teachers, often feel unable to do the job. After the liberation, the requirements of the party and government to gradually raise the quality of primary education are not enough for me. I am eager to learn. However, when it comes to learning, I think again: I am the mother of four children, and I am afraid that it will be difficult to achieve this wish. In this contradictory thought, there is more and more lack of confidence in the work, sometimes even think of themselves one day will be eliminated. However, the fact gave me the best answer. In our new society, the party and government often care for us and encourage and help us to progress. In the autumn of 1953, in order to improve the educational level of primary school teachers, the Suzhou City Cultural Affairs Bureau and the Education Union held the primary school teachers’ extra-curricular training school. My request for permission to attend the language group was approved. At that time in my mind