指尖在未有觉知、思维和意识之前,作为旁人的替代品,我已隐约在尘世里显现。我被冠以另外的性别和称谓,频繁地出现在祖母、外婆和母亲与别人的交谈中。那个我,迅速在亲朋好友中扩散,直至成形,并有了些微存在的迹象。他们都在错误地将我定在另一个堂而皇之的位置上,并因之而快慰、膨胀。从那时起,我或许就该知道,一切既定的事实,其本源及促成结局的过程明显出现差异。一切的一切,作为具体物像呈现出来之时,那也就是无法挽回的时候了。 Fingertips in the unaware of, thinking and awareness, as a substitute for others, I have vaguely appeared in the world. I was crowned with another gender and appellation, frequently appearing in conversation with grandmothers, grandma and mother. That I, quickly spread among friends and relatives, until the formation, and there are some signs of micro existence. They are mistakenly set me in another magnificent position, and so happy and bloated. Since then, I should know that all the established facts, their origins, and the processes that led to the conclusion are clearly different. When everything is presented as a concrete object, it is an irreplaceable time.