我的出家完全是一种缘份,那是另一种境界,是很美妙的生命体验。出家前并没想做什么画僧,就是想换一个生存环境,想换一种活法。现在分析自己当年的行为,可能有冲动和浪漫的成分在里边。其实我并不真正了解宗教,进入佛门之后才发现自己并不适应那种生活。人在佛门外看佛教,很宏观,有距离,感觉很美,那种美对艺术家最有吸引力,让人想靠近她、贴近她、走进她。当宏观变成局部、浪漫变成现实,才发现自己的不适和茫然。 My monk is completely a fate, that is another state, it is a wonderful life experience. Monk did not want to do before monk, is to want to change a living environment, want to change a living law. Now analyze your own behavior, there may be impulsive and romantic elements in it. In fact, I do not really understand religion, after entering Buddhism, I found myself not suited to that kind of life. People see Buddhism outside of Buddhism. They are macroscopic, distanced, and feel beautiful. The beauty is most attractive to artists. People want to be close to her, close to her, and walk into her. When the macro into a local, romantic become a reality, only to find their own discomfort and loss.