晚睡:我已婚,一年前出轨已婚男同事,后来他老婆察觉了,与他闹,他就与我断了联系。现在过去一年了,我始终不甘心,如果他也会难过,我心里会好受些,可看到他反而因此和老婆改善了关系,经常秀恩爱,我觉得自己太不值。上个月在我的再三要求下,我们又见了一面。我没有想怎么样,就是放不下,接受不了他的态度。我内心想要他回来跪求我,然后我才能彻底放下他。我该怎么办?求你骂骂我吧。 Sleep late: I was married, a year ago derailed married male colleague, and later his wife spotted, and he trouble, he broke off contact with me. Now I have been unwilling for the past year. If he would be sad, I would feel better in my heart. I could see that he improved his relationship with his wife and showed his loving kindness often. I feel that I am worthless. Last month, on my repeated request, we met again. I did not think what it is, can not let go, can not accept his attitude. My heart wanted him to come back to kneel for me, and then I could put him down completely. What should I do? Please curse me.