升任主治医师后,我第一次穿上崭新的白色长袍,非常得意。在我们的领域里,白色长袍是知识与权威的象征,对一个医师意义非凡。我有一块黑板,写着不同病人的名字。护理站的黑板上,如果病人的名字被擦掉,通常表示这个病人康复出院了。可是,我的黑板上全是需要长期使用止痛药物的晚期癌症病人的名字,如果有人的名字被擦掉,多半表示这个病人已经过世。那时候,我刚升任主治医师不 After I became a physician, I was very proud of wearing the new white robe for the first time. In our field, white robe is a symbol of knowledge and authority, an extraordinary significance to a physician. I have a blackboard with the names of different patients. Nursing station blackboard, if the patient’s name is erased, usually indicates that the patient was discharged from hospital. However, my blackboard is full of long-term use of painkillers in patients with advanced cancer patients name, if someone’s name is erased, most said the patient has passed away. At that time, I just did not go to the attending physician