“陈教授:很早就想给您写信,但我一直拖了有三年之久。这期间我始终痛苦不堪。 我很敏感,总觉得别人对我冷淡,有时故意与别人说说笑笑,尽量让自己高兴起来。可怎么也控制不住那份紧张,到头来,脑子里兴奋异常,很胀、很痛。尤其是和异性交往,尽管我可以尽心地和他们谈话,但心里总存有男女界限要分明的戒心。我从来没有让任何一个男性碰过我身上的任何地方。我比较早熟,挺早就对男孩有好感,但我拼命压抑,并认为与男孩接触是可耻的。 Professor Chen: I wanted to write to you very early, but I have been dragging it for three years. During this period, I was always in pain .I am very sensitive. I always feel that others are indifferent to me. Let myself be happy.How can not control the share of tension, in the end, abnormal excitement in my mind, very bloated, hurts, especially with the opposite sex, although I can talk with them, but there are always men and women boundaries I have never let any one man touch any of my body.I am more precocious, very early on the boys have a good impression, but I am desperately depressed, and that contact with the boy is shameful.