想当年三十年代,我从浙东家乡到故都北平,开始走上写作道路,度过长达几十年的写作生涯。满脑子是家乡凄苦的童年生活。母亲和三个姊姊都是童养媳,母亲留给我的记忆是,她经常坐在灶门前流眼泪,以及她去世时(我九岁)的最后一句话:“我不甘心。”三个姊姊的命运并没有比母亲稍好,小姊更是死在入侵日寇的刺刀下。特别是我在北平求学的年代,正是日寇侵占东北三省后,进一步侵占华 In the 1930s, from the hometown of eastern Zhejiang to the ancient capital of Peiping, I began to embark on the path of writing and spent several decades of my writing career. Full of brain is home miserable childhood. Mother and her three sisters were both child-daughter-in-law. My mother left me a memory of tears often sitting in front of the stove and the last sentence when she died (I was nine): “I’m not willing.” The fate of the three sisters is not better than the mother, the younger sister is dead in the bayonet invasion of the Japanese invaders. Especially when I was studying in Peiping, it was the Japanese invaders who occupied the three northeastern provinces and further invaded China