我踏上指挥台,将手中颤抖的指挥棒紧靠在晚礼服上。74名演奏员抬头望着我,一切准备就绪。纽约州夏托夸镇能够容纳5千人的露天圆形剧场里一片肃静。我踌躇着,指挥棒份量千均,一旦挥下各色音响将猝然发出,此时此刻,尤如陷于梦魇,我将指挥什么乐曲?我脑里一片空白。我僵直在那里,环顾四周,企盼救援。可我所看见的到处都是期待的眼睛紧紧盯着我。我不由扪心自问,我怎么会站在这里 I set foot on the podium and put the wobbly baton in my evening dress. 74 players looked up at me, everything is ready. Chateaubrau City, New York A serene amphitheater that holds 5,000. I hesitated, the baton weight is equal to one thousand, once the tone will be played a sudden burst of color, at this moment, as in a nightmare, what music I will command? My mind is blank. I am stiff there, looking around, looking forward to rescue. But I can see all eyes are waiting to be staring at me. I can not help asking myself, how can I stand here