清明前一日回到老家,到村子背靠的白鹿原北坡上,在父母的坟头烧了一堆被视为阴币的黄纸。尽管明知这是于逝者没有任何补益的事,然而每年此日不仅不能缺少,甚至早早就泛溢着一种甚为急切的情绪。自己心里明白,上坟烧纸和跪拜的行为,无非是为消解对父母恩德亏欠太多的负疚心理,获得的一种安慰。 Qingming the day before returning home, to the village on the northern slopes of Bailuyuan, burned a pile of yellow paper in his parents’ grave as a shadow coin. Although it is known that this is a matter of no benefit to the deceased, not only can we not be short of this day every year, we have even eclipsed a very eager mood early on. My heart understands that the act of burning paper and kneeling on the grave is nothing more than a comfort to get rid of the guilt that owes too much to the grace of the father and mother.