母亲去年六月过世后,我对诸事倦怠,金门事也一样。去年七月初,金门文化局办理讲座,我早已应允,又想母亲不希望我背信,依约而往。演讲时多次提母亲,伤心难抑,又想到,母亲定不希望我把事情搞坏了。打起精神,把笑当泪。八月再回故乡,负责主持,赶早出门,但步伐少了驱力,慢了一班车、两班车,终是慢了五分钟报到,票被取消。十月下旬,收到文化局邀约评审文学奖,甫接电话,倦怠感又起,又想,母亲必不希望她的离开,让我也离开,面 After my mother passed away in June last year, I was tired of all things, and Kinmen did the same. In early July last year, Kinmen Bureau of Cultural Affairs for the lecture, I have already promised, but also want my mother do not want me to believe, depending on the contract. In my speech, I raised my mother many times, sadly depressed, but also thought that my mother would not want me to ruin things. Fight, laugh when tears. August return to their hometown, in charge of hosting, go out early, but the pace less drive, a slow car, two bus, finally slow five minutes report, the ticket was canceled. In late October, received literary awards invited by the Cultural Bureau, just answer the phone, burnout again, think, the mother will not want her to leave, let me also leave