很小的时候,我就担心自己:假如被敌人俘虏了,我能经受得住皮鞭抽打吗?我能忍受得了“老虎凳”和辣椒水吗?那时我感到非常紧张,害怕自己投降,一想到可能会成为可耻的叛徒,我便终日惶恐,甚至被噩梦惊醒。害怕因经受不住严刑拷打而成为叛徒的忧虑,曾经困扰我的整个少年时代。我为《钢铁战士》里的张排长和《宁死不屈》里的阿尔巴尼亚女游击队员钢铁般的意志、 When I was young, I was worried about myself: Can I withstand the whiplash if captured by the enemy? Can I bear the “Tiger Bench” and pepper water? At that time I was very nervous and afraid of my surrender When I thought about what might become a shameless traitor, I was scared all day and even awakened by a nightmare. Fear of becoming a traitor for being unable to withstand torture tortured me throughout my childhood. I am a steel-lover of the platoon commander in the “Iron and Steel Warriors” and the Albanian female guerrillas in "