My husband died suddenly when my son was 5 years old. I sat him down the next day to explain to him that daddy had died. I had to do it in a calm， almost practical① tone because I didn’t want him to cry. I felt that he was too young for his heart to be broken that way. He took it all in calmly.
　　Then he said to me， "Mommy， I want a new heart， this one hurts."
　　I learned that day how much physical②effort it takes to stop oneself from crying.
　　兒子5岁时，丈夫突然离世。第二天，我和他坐下来，想要向他解释父亲不在了这件事。我的语气必须要十分镇静，甚至实事求是一般，因为我不想他哭闹。他还太小，不应该承受这样的心碎。但是他十分冷静地接受了这件事。
　　然后，他对我说：“妈妈，我想要换个新的心，现在的心太痛了。”
　　那天，我才知道让自己不哭泣需要多大的力气。