十四岁,延安,初见爹爹我是1940年10月由四川大后方出发的,一路北上,到中共中央驻地延安和自己的家人会面。关于父亲,在到延安之前,我脑海里是一片空白。为了填补脑海里的空白,我用了十四年的时间,不断幻想,不断更新,不断塑造,尽量去想象一个善良、英俊、很有大男子汉味道的父亲。尽管这个带有斑斓色彩的父亲,是我借用同学的父亲和听外婆和姨妈讲述的父亲描绘出来的。在我见到真实父亲以前,这个虚构的“父亲”一直忠实地陪伴着我,慰 Fourteen, Yan’an, First See Daddy I started from the rear of Sichuan in October 1940 and went northward to meet with my family in Yenan, the seat of the CPC Central Committee. About my father, before I arrived in Yenan, my mind was empty. In order to fill the gap in my mind, I spent fourteen years, constantly fantasy, constantly updated, constantly shaping, try to imagine a kind, handsome, great male flavor of the father. Although this gorgeous father was borrowed from his classmates’ father and grandmother and aunt’s father. Before I saw my real father, this fictitious “father” had always been with me faithfully