一在自己生活的这一时期里,生病和对死亡的日益恐惧使卡姆斯基备受痛苦,他完全走向了神秘主义。临终时刻悄无声息、坚定不移地快步向他逼近,在这一刻的空虚和黑暗中,唯一的希望之光只能是对上帝的思考。在这个思考之外,什么也没有;恐惧笼罩着世界,剩下的只有驯服而忧伤地等待死亡的到来。像所有神经质的人一样,卡姆斯基的恐惧并不是隐隐约约的重负,而是猛烈爆发出来的。当时他辗转反侧,整夜整夜地伤心,陷入患病后无可奈 During this period of his own life, Kamsky suffered greatly from the illness and the growing fear of death, and he completely moved towards mysticism. There is no sound at the end of life, and steadfastly approaching him, in this emptiness and darkness, the only light of hope can only be the thinking of God. There is nothing beyond this consideration; fear shrouds in the world, leaving only tame and sad waiting for the death to come. Like all neurotic people, Kamsky’s fear is not a vague burden, but violently broke out. At that time, he was tossing and turning around, and hurt all night long after falling ill