一、前言2007年2月18日春节当天,我电话向山田老师拜年,只觉他气虚无力,并无欢愉之情,以为他有沉重心事。2月下旬,许泽天自德国回台,电话告诉我,老师罹患胰脏癌已至末期,是春节前检查出来的。医师说,只剩半年时间。老师退休后,幽居礁溪,多次邀我晤谈,我俱无回应。这回,学期刚开始,我缺课,约了泽天带路,直驶礁溪。我见到才做完化疗的老师,理着光头,瘦了将近20公斤,披着御寒重裘,面容呈现水果败坏一般的黑色。我心中的英雄人物,遭病魔如此折腾,想着他曾经叱咤风云,想着他昔日 I. Preface On February 18, 2007, on the Spring Festival day, I telephoned Mr. Yamada for his New Year’s call. He felt that he was weak and inflated and did not feel happy. He thought he had a heavy heart. In late February, Xu Zetian returned to Germany from Germany. The phone told me that the teacher has had pancreatic cancer to the last stage and is checked out before the Spring Festival. The doctor said only half a year left. After the teacher retired, living Jiaoxi dwelling, invited me to talk many times, I have no response. This time, the beginning of the semester, I missed a class, about Ze day with the road, driving Jiaoxi. When I saw the teacher who had finished the chemotherapy, I took baldness, lost almost 20 kilos, dressed in warm winter fur, and showed a black face with fruit spoiled. Heroes in my heart, so sick of the disease, thinking he had all-powerful, thinking of his past