老爸过世5年了,我还从未梦见过他呢。老爸是“老橡胶”了,一辈子没离开密炼,没离开那又脏又累又有毒的岗位。临近退休前,他却得了肝癌。老爸闹不明白,偏偏密炼工得癌症呢?他不住医院,甚至连药都不吃,有时疼得嗤牙咧嘴,也硬挺着。每当看他痛苦不堪的样子,心像针扎似地难受。这天下班回家,不见老爸。我妈说,他可能去了厂区的墓地。墓地,离家并不远,半里多。在西山坡上。我悄悄地来到了那里,只见老爸躬着腰,边看墓碑,边数落 Dad died five years, I have never dreamed about him yet. Dad is “old rubber ”, and life did not leave the secret, did not leave that dirty and tired and toxic post. Before coming to retirement, he had liver cancer. Dad trouble do not understand, but the secret workers get cancer? He did not live in the hospital, and even medicine do not eat, sometimes painful teeth grinning, but also stiff. Whenever I look at his painful appearance, the heart like a needle-like discomfort. Home after get off work this day, no father. My mom said he might have gone to the cemetery in the factory. Cemetery, not far from home, more than half a mile. On the hillside. I quietly came there, I saw my father bowed, watching the tombstone, while the number of