九、一场痛苦可怕的噩梦 [一]引言从《李自成》的开始动笔,到我写这章回忆录时已经二十四年了。大约有将近二十年的时间,我对一般人讳言《李自成》开始写作的实在时间。后来逐渐被一些人们知道,但为数不多。到“四人帮”倒台以后,社会形势大变,我就不再怕说出实话,而广大读者也 Nine, a terrible painful nightmare [A] Introduction From the beginning of “Li Zicheng” to start writing, when I wrote this chapter memoir has been twenty-four years. About twenty years ago, I denied the average person the real time when Li Zicheng started writing. Later, it was gradually known by some people but not many. After the fall of the “gang of four,” the social situation has changed drastically. I am no longer afraid to tell the truth, and the vast majority of readers