从害怕到崇敬我是一个从旧社会过来的知识分子,在上海市南洋模范中学工作。解放前,我所在的学校是提倡学生不问政治的。我的政治觉悟很低。我们对国民党政府的贪污腐败,非常痛恨。但对中国共产党的认识,也非常模糊。由于当时国民党的反动宣传,我对共产党也有所疑虑、有所害怕。在解放战争后期,国民党军队节节溃败,人民解放军长驱南下。我的心里也是很复杂矛盾的。一方面希望国民党政府早日倒台,一方面也忧虑中国共产党来了之后,对学校对个人,会不会有什么危险呢?而且,学校不支持当时的学生运动,还开除过一些学生。其中有些人后来就去了苏北解放区。解放军到上海,这些以前 From fear to reverence I am an intellectual from the old society, working in Shanghai Nanyang Model High School. Before liberation, my school advocated students not to ask politics. My political consciousness is very low. We hate the corruption of the KMT government very much. However, the understanding of the Chinese Communist Party is also very vague. Due to the Kuomintang’s reactionary propaganda at the time, I was also somewhat worried and afraid of the Communist Party. In the latter part of the Liberation War, the Kuomintang troops were defeated and the People’s Liberation Army marched southward. My heart is also very complex and contradictory. On the one hand, it is hoped that the Kuomintang government will soon fall asleep, and on the other hand it will also worry about the danger to schools and individuals after the arrival of the Chinese Communist Party. Moreover, the school did not support the student movement and expelled some students. Some of them later went to the liberated areas of northern Jiangsu. People’s Liberation Army to Shanghai, these days ago