1我并不能使自己彻底安定下来。当生活继续,身体的困倦越来越浓,我在屋子里待的时间过久,为此觉得生命被固定在了一处,视野也缩小成了一个半圆。那存在于更广阔世界里的外物离我越远,在这种时候,我通过与文字的交流找到一点儿小出口。连续好几个星期,我迷恋于这样的事业,妄想通过写作把自己的问题完全解决掉,我在生命中所记录的一切,都成了一个奇怪的迷惑。设若我保留这样的情境,在文字的壁垒中积累一些东西,那更多的人与事也不再被排除,但也不是写作的主体。这样的人生不是我曾经设想的,但时间来 I can not completely settle myself. As life continues, the body becomes more and more drowsy, I stay in the house for too long, for which I feel that life is fixed in one, the vision has shrunk into a semicircle. The farther away from the outside world that exists in the wider world, at this time I find a little exit through the exchange of words. For weeks, I became obsessed with such a career, trying to solve my problems completely through writing, and all that I recorded in my life became a strange confusion. If I keep such a situation, I will accumulate something in the barrier of words, and more people and things will no longer be excluded, but not the subject of writing. This life is not what I had imagined, but time comes