我出生那年哥五岁。那些年计划生育抓得紧,可我却堂而皇之地来了。因为,哥是个弱智。哥三岁那年,高烧不退,一个星期之后,哥就这样了。妈把我放在里屋的炕上,扬着巴掌对哥说:不许碰弟弟。哥嘿嘿地笑着,赖在门槛上,长长的口水淌湿了衣襟。其实妈不知道,她不在的时候,哥会趴在窗台上偷偷看我,嘴里还会小声地叫着:弟,弟。妈抱着我在院子里晒太阳,哥凑过来,小心翼翼地想要摸一下我的脸,妈像躲瘟疫般跳到一边:滚开,有你一个已经是我作孽了,你 I was five years old when I was born. In those years, when family planning was tight, I came out openly. Because, brother is a mentally retarded. Brother three years old, high fever, a week later, brother it. Mom put me on the back of the house kang, Yang slap on the brother said: Do not touch his brother. Brother Hey smile, Lai on the threshold, long saliva drip wet skirt. In fact, mom do not know, she is not the time, Columbia will lie on the window sill secretly see me, his mouth will be whispered cried: brother, brother. Ma hugged me in the yard sun, brother came over, carefully trying to touch my face, mom like to hide from the plague-like jump: get out, have you a is already my sin, and you