不知道外婆弥留之际有没有怪我,总之我对自己的评价是不折不扣的不孝孙。年前外婆跌倒,伤了后脑勺,从此我的梦里连续出现了惊悸和不安。我在梦里看到她的身体像风干的叶子一样被抛在悬崖下,她骨瘦如柴的身子已经单薄得不堪日晒雨淋。舅舅捋起她的裤管,用手捏捏她的小腿给我看,那里几乎已经没有肉,哪怕是松弛的肉也没有了,那刻我心里针扎一样,仿佛昨天还在路上健步如飞的她,怎么就不言不语了呢?我可是她最疼的孙子,我叫了几声,她半睁开眼睛,但是像怕 I do not know the occasion of grandma dying I blame me, in short, my own evaluation is a letter of non filial grandson. Years ago, my grandmother fell, hurt the back of the head, from my dreams continuous horror and anxiety. I saw her body in the dream, like leaves dried under the cliff, her skinny body has been too thin sunburn. Uncle picked up her pants, squeezed her leg by hand to show me there, almost no meat, even if there is no relaxation of the meat, and that moment my heart acupuncture, as if yesterday she was still walking on foot, How can I say nothing? I was her most gratifying grandson, I called a few times, she half opened her eyes, but like fear