为梅花奖奔忙的那段日子,我初为人父,总是挥汗如雨地从排练场赶回家,看到襁褓里的女儿,对责任、对生命、对流逝的时间有了别样的感悟。在获知得奖消息的时候,我抱着女儿看窗外晚春薄暮的景色,心中并未有想象中的狂喜,倒有几分疲惫以后的踏实,在我怀里咿咿呀呀手舞足蹈的小生命,让我切肤地体会到“爱”意味着沉甸甸的、不能放手的分量——对孩子是这样,对昆曲也是。若干年前,我曾对得奖抱有执念,那时的我,终日埋头唱戏,太需要得到肯定,一次比赛 Plum Blossom Award for the busy period of those days, I first as a father, always sweating from the rehearsal field and went home, see the dildo in the daughters, responsibility, life, the passage of time have a different kind of perception. When I was informed of the award-winning message, I looked at my daughter out of the window in late spring twilight scenes. There was no imaginative ecstasy in my heart. I realized that after a bit of exhaustion, I could not stop dancing in my arms. I realized that “love ” means heavy, can not let go of the weight - for children, but also for Kunqu Opera. A few years ago, I had been obsessed with winning medals, when I, all day singing, too need to be sure, a match