我刚懂事的时候,爷爷、爸爸常说大卷扬这个词,把我耳朵都灌满了。直到上小学三年级,才知道卷筒直径六米是什么概念。每每提到大卷扬,爷爷和爸爸总是瞅着我摇头叹气。妈妈在医院生我那阵儿,爷爷在自家庭院焦急地徘徊,爸爸说,他踏着鞭炮声回家的时候,爷爷的脸冻得通红,也不肯回屋暖和会儿。看到爸爸沮丧的神情,爷爷问,怎么,生了个丫头?爸爸默默地点了点头。爷爷跺脚,把右拳砸在左掌心里,然后双手抱着脑袋,蹲在地上。许久,他像对爸爸说,也像喃喃自语,完了,卷 When I was just sensible, my grandfather and my father used to say that the words of the great winch filled my ears. Until the third grade of elementary school, did you know the concept of reel diameter of six meters? Often referred to the big winch, my grandfather and father always looked at me and shook his head. My mother gave birth to me in the hospital, my grandfather hovered anxiously in my courtyard, and my father said that when he went home with firecrackers, his grandfather’s face was flushed and refused to return to the house for a while. See my father depressed look, my grandfather asked, how, gave birth to a girl? Papa nodded silently. Grandpa stomping, hit the right fist in the left palm, and then both hands holding his head, squatting on the ground. For a long time, he said to his father, also like muttering, finished, volume