这部小说是2005年夏天写的。十一年了,写这篇文字时,她还在折磨着我。十八岁那年秋天,当我第一次踏出那个小山村,潜意识地认为:我再也回不去了!我死也要死在外面。当时,我没有信心面对自己的未来,这不仅仅是缘于未来不可预知、人的命运变幻无常。十年之后,当我在城市娶妻生子,在日复一日过着上班的生活时,我对故乡,对黄土高原的那个小村 This novel was written in the summer of 2005. Eleven years, at the time of writing, she still tortured me. At the age of eighteen autumn when I first stepped out of that hill village, I subconsciously thought: I can not go back anymore! At that time, I did not have the confidence to face my own future, not only because of unpredictable future, but also because of the fate of mankind. Ten years later, when I married and lived in the city and lived a commute to work day after day, I said to my hometown, to the small village on the Loess Plateau